Cancer was a blur
You would never guess the pain Aubrey has experienced through simply looking at her life. She seems to have a positivity that defies logic; and if you listen to her story, you'll know this to be true.
At the beginning, when I first found out, betrayal, heartbreak, and madness washed over me. I felt as if God had let me down and betrayed me. I also knew that my life as I knew it was going to change and I didn't know if it was for the best or the worst. I knew I wouldn’t be able to go to the first day of school; however even worse, I knew that I would have to quit every sport I played. To be honest, this news was the most depressing part. Athletics were my joy in life and made me smile every day. Comprehending this led me to cry, the only time I ever did as I recall.
So many questions were rushing through my head.
Am I going to die?
Why did this have to happen to me?
Could I have prevented this?
Is this my fault?
Is God punishing me?
I feel that God was using me to create a bigger message. The whole journey of 64 weeks and 5 days was a blur but I do remember the people; my community was a big help. I only remember smiling and enjoying the many friends and family that would come visit me every day. People that I didn’t even know would come visit me in the hospital! From this experience, it has showed me that there are other things in the world than just sports and I couldn't see that without being forced to stop all sports so I could realize that. Going through this experience,
I learned that my story can help and inspire many people,
I learned that the many challenges we face in life are no match for God,
I learned that we should always be grateful for the people in our lives.
"You beat cancer by how you live, why you live, and in the manner in which you live.”
-Stuart Scott
Why do you live? What are you living for? How are you living that out? These are the questions we're faced with everyday and it's our choice how we respond. In the midst of Aubrey's cancer story, she decided she had much more life to live because she's going to be a doctor. What part of life do you still need to live? Whatever it is, run after it.
