The Fire Contradiction
Laying in my bed, I felt like I couldn’t get up.
Taking a three hour nap in the middle of the afternoon during one of my off days, I asked the question: “What am I getting up for”. I remember not being able to answer that question. Just moving by myself to San Diego, it was hard to recall one person that understood me that wasn’t 3,000 miles away.
At the exact moment, the contradictory truth was ver real: I knew there was no place I’d rather be. Initiating human connection and functioning through the loneliness was the only way of transforming myself from a boy to a man. As if feeling like I was thrown into a furnace wasn’t enough, willingly staying in it for my long term benefit made me feel crazy!
Following God through the loneliness and confusion can feel like fire; and Jesus never promised other wise. It says Jesus will come and be a “refiners fire”. The only way to be refined is to suffer through the pain.
I read this today:
Let us be reminded: Although the fire persists, so does our God.