That Awkward Out-of-Place Feeling
I don't enjoy doing something that feels unnatural for me in order to love someone else well. Why? Well, I don't like being uncomfortable. You know, that awkward out-of-place feeling? Where you'd rather be anywhere else but there? Yeah...
But may be that's the point of doing it.
May be that's what sacrifice means.
May be that's what selflessness means.
I do feel like I am growing and thinking of myself less and others more. The rare death of myself brings forth a rare birth of relational generosity. When I put myself aside, even the awkward out-of-place feeling, a humility that says, "This is not about me" takes its place.