2 Experiences in Church
I have found this so deeply true in my own personal life. I grew up in a small town called Buckfield that was located in Maine. I'd often get confused reading the bible because it didn't seem to quite line up with the way we lived our lives. I would read verses like:
We had a bunch of services so I attended them and even raised my hands during musical worship. To my enjoyment, I was labeled a faithful Christian; however, the God I was reading in the Bible seemed to have a different way of measuring faithfulness.
I moved on from that Church to a radically different one in Ohio. From picketing for Gay rights and holding potlucks to gather the poor and the powerless, I was excited at first about the practical Kingdom building; Yet, I would hate going to services because they were rigid, passionless, and inauthentic. I would be confused as to why I loved the actions of the Church but so often did not want to hang out with anybody within the Church.
My childhood was the quote above. It is difficult to disagree with something I have lived painfully through. My enneagram is a three which means I tend to crave achievement. It was very hard to know what to achieve, a passionless servitude, or zealous service attender? Ultimately, I left the church for two years in high school because of this confusion.
With all this being said, I do believe there is a third way.