Who am I?

So this is my first blog of 2019. This year has been the craziest one yet: Getting married, finishing Masters, getting out of $36,000 of debt next month. In the same time frame, I have been beat me down like not other time in my life. To be honest, I took on too much while trying to control the outcome of everything in my life. Subconsciously thinking my worth comes from the stuff that is accomplished and how is selfishly reflects back to my reputation has brought me to my knees. On the outside, much was accomplished, on the inside, I am confused about my identity.

Am I just the sum of all my accomplishments? Am I the sum of all my failures? This confusion about my identity can lead to so many dark places. At this point, I don’t feel much anymore. It’s kind of like living a world of black and white while peering out the window to life that has a vibrant color scale.

Who am I?

Writing this blog is the start of my journey back to the other side of the window. The only way to the other side is to figure out the answer to this question. The scary part is the real possibility of not knowing if I will ever figure out my own identity. I have been known for my personality of passion, intentionality, and creativity.

All I know is that there is a lot on the line: I am fighting for more than just myself, I am fighting for my wife, my future family, and I am fighting for my ministry.

So here I go…